my best friend is in love with me :(

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     After a drunk night out, he drives me home. I slowly nod off in the passenger seat with my hand on the gear stick. Listening to my favourite album, I feel his hand on mine and his thumb stroking my wrist. I don't feel uneasy or unsafe; I feel only sad. We reach my house and drop off our insanely drunk friend, now it's just the two of us, I know I should leave, but I couldn't "Are you hungry? Should we get some food?" I instead suggest. He says yes, and at 4am, we drive in complete silence to a drive-through, both far too aware of the tension and sadness between us. 

    I simply can't fight how tired I am while he eats, and I just want to forget the night and my headaches. As I sleep, he pulls my head into his lap and lets me sleep, I know he is watching me, I know he is playing all my favourite songs, and I know he's keeping the temperature the way I like it. I know that this is my best friend and that he is lonely, and again, I can only feel a horrible sadness. 

    I lay there completely safe, warm, and cozy, he strokes my hair and watches me sleep. I don't know what he was thinking, but I know he's in love with me. 

    Selfishly, I cannot choose if I should let him go, protect myself and him, or keep my best friend to myself. Wish me luck. I am definitely selfish, but maybe I could/should change?

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